The Love of Family

So as I often do when I have some type of news of things going on in my world I go and talk to my grandparents. They are getting up there in their years but I love and deeply cherish our conversations. Today for example I went to talk to my gran to tell her about some things that I am working on.

My grandpa as he often is was in the back letting the TV watch him. But he always has something positive to say to me which I have always really appreciated.

As I was sitting in the kitchen having a cup of tea with my gran and I am telling her about everything that I have going on and what I am working on she is just giving me positive feedback and good advise and who I should contact with in our family that may be able to help me do what needs to be done.

Family is not something that should ever be taken for granted. I have so much love and respect and appreciation for my grandparents that I am not sure if they will ever know it. I tell them that I love them all the time because it is true and I know that they love me because they have always been there for me especially when I was going through a rough patch a few years ago.

My grandmother told me that God always has a plan for me and that what He has planned for me is for me and for no one else. I have heard that saying so many times before but it really didn't like hit home to me until I heard it today. Also the theory or rather my theory of how God really works. Once I started to explain it to her (like she didn't already know) that is when it really hit me as I was saying it. Because it really is true.

When you get knocked down in life and you become mad and angry and bitter at the world you start to tell yourself that you don't need God's help and you can do everything on your own. Then you go out there and you try and nothing is working right for you and then you become even more angry and bitter and you get even madder at the world when you simply weren't listening to what God was trying to tell you.

So once you hit the lowest point and you feel like you can't get any lower you then decide that you no longer want to fight this battle with God because you realize that you are not going to win. So you give and then you start making positive changes in your life and then all of a sudden all of the things that you want and all of the things that you need start falling right into your lap and all you have to do is say thank you God.

That is what happened to me. I was at a really bad and dark place that is totally not in my nature at all. I have a happy go lucky dang near gullible type of person my entire life and I didn't really like me when I was at my low point.

But since I have started making positive changes in my life, things are starting to move in a direction that I want them to go in again and that is all right with me.

So if you have people in your life that you call family by blood or not that are always there for you and help to pick you when you are down, just tell them thank you for always being in your corner.

I am so glad to be getting back to the positive happy Lauren because I like her a lot more than the person that I have been for the past few years.

It is a process and most certainly a learning experience and I am glad that I can take it one day at a time.

Until next time.....


Peace & Many Blessings.