So this weekend has been pretty long for me. I worked like a crazy woman because why? I love to work and I want to be able to treat myself every now and then, but that is not the purpose of this blog post today.
Today I am writing about something that I don't ever really talk about with most people because it is something that is very personal and private to me but today I am going to share.
God.
Often times in life you want to share your views, thoughts, and opinions about many things that are going on, world issues, race relations, politics, the economy all types of things but when it comes to God and religion or spirituality people are either very quite on the matter or overtly over the top in their own opinion.
Neither way is wrong. I have just for many years been a 'let me keep it to myself' type of person. Why? I can't tell you. Because if you ask me I am going to tell you that I am a true believer in Jesus Christ and that he died for our sins and the son of God and I want to make into heaven. Now I am not going to sit up here and say that I go to church every Sunday because I don't or that I read my Bible every day because I don't do that either although I do try to read it as often as I can, but you can't tell me in any way shape form or fashion that God doesn't exist. I know that He is real and I know that He is out there. I can't explain it I can just feel it and that is the Holy Spirit.
For those that know me know that I have had a rough few years until pretty recently and it wasn't until I got the thought in my head that maybe I need to make some changes and then some things might start to improve in my world. That was God working on me. I finally started listening. Low and behold. I move to a different location at my job and things start looking up for me. I am moving in the direction of moving up within the company. And possibly to a job that is actually in my field of study of what I went to school for in the first place which would be even better for me. It never really dawned on me to look for a job in my field with the company until I was talking to another person that is of God and pointed it out to me. Now I am not saying that I wouldn't have come to this conclusion on my own, but some times you need to hear some things from other people that you least expect to hear them from to actually plant the seed in your mind to take certain actions.
I don't know why it is that I have this over whelming since that this is going to be a break out year for me. I feel so much positivity and energy and happiness in my life that I know it is NOTHING but God moving in my life and making things better for me.
I feel so blessed and so happy all the time and I wasn't this person even 6 months ago. That is the amazing part and just the awesome power of God. There are so many things that I want out of life and that I want to do in life and I know that they will all be done in the right time. There are some lessons that I still need to learn I know that but there is this feeling that I have that I don't ever want to lose.
I had a failed relationship that only lasted 3 months and I learned that I able to love past what I thought I was able to love. The man that I was with is a good man. I just don't think that he was the right man for me. But what God showed me is that I am beautiful and that I deserve to be happy with the right person and not to just settle for someone just for the sake of being with them because I was lonely. I am beautiful and that is something that my ex would tell me all the time. I didn't believe it because I have always had issues with the way that I look. I have always been bigger than everyone else in my family and of my friends. I have always felt like the ugly duckling when it came to me compared to my female cousins and even my friends. I was never the one that the cute boys wanted to talk to or looked as being more than a friend. I was always just a cool chick to hang with. My ex made me realize that I was just as beautiful as the rest of them. I am beautiful and I do deserve to be happy. My mother has been telling me that for years but some things you just need to hear from a different avenue for it to really hit home for you. Besides mothers are supposed to tell their daughters that anyway right? Lol
God has some wonderful things in store for me. I don't even know what they are but I AM EXCITED.
I had a conversation with my manager of all people about God today and we shared some good information with each other. And one thing that I told her is that she needs to practice patience especially with things that you want the most. Because something that I have done my entire life is compare what others had to what I had or what others were doing and why wasn't I at the same point as my peers but you can't compare yourself to others because what God has for you is for you in your time and no one else and that really hit home for me recently and I am so glad that it finally.
So I can now stop worrying about when I am going to meet the man that I am supposed to be with because I know that he is out there and that we are going to meet when God is done working on me and ready for us to meet.
My goal is to keep working on myself and to better my relationship with God and be happy with every thing that He has done for me already and all of the things that He is going to do for me.
Change is coming and this is my time to shine and that is exactly what I plan on doing.
And that is just my .04 cents.
Until Next Time.......
Peace & Many Blessings.
Sunday, January 29, 2012
Monday, January 23, 2012
Red Tails
I went to go see the movie Red Tails today. Over all I will give 3.5 stars out of 5. I liked the movie in general but I had a few issues with a few things.
First the character that Ne-Yo played "Smokey" reminded me so much of the same character that he played in Stomp The Yard "Rich Brown" which just goes to show that when he has to act in a bigger role in a movie such as this where it is a time period piece he is not really up to the challenge. I think that he and Kevin Phillips who played "Neon" should have switched rolls. That is something that I think could have have made the movie a little bit better because Ne-Yo's acting is just sub par. Kevin Phillips is probably best known for his role in the movie "Pride" which also starred Terrence Howard and Nate Parker.
Some of the language was very corny and it was also very inconsistent. The language in the movie appeared to be a mix on today's slang and content and things that were actually being said in the 1940's.
There were small things that I did notice like Method Man's tattoo that should have been covered with some type of make-up even though he had on long sleeves in every scene that he was in he wasn't standing still the entire time that he was on camera and they could be seen every now and then.
I think that Terrence Howard has a limited range on emotion because I swear he is the same person in all of his movies, he looks good but he is still the same person.
All in all I would recommend that everyone go and see this movie, but also check out The Tuskegee Airmen which was an HBO movie that came out in 1995. In where I think the acting was a little bit better.
But I was very happy to see this movie have a big opening weekend and hopefully this will show Hollywood that an all black cast can bring people out even if there is no old grandma yelling at all of the children to get right. I mean there were SEVERAL all black movies in the 90's and early 2000's and they just all disappeared with the arrival of the blockbuster summer flicks.
This is just my .04 cents
Until Next Time......
Peace & Many Blessings
First the character that Ne-Yo played "Smokey" reminded me so much of the same character that he played in Stomp The Yard "Rich Brown" which just goes to show that when he has to act in a bigger role in a movie such as this where it is a time period piece he is not really up to the challenge. I think that he and Kevin Phillips who played "Neon" should have switched rolls. That is something that I think could have have made the movie a little bit better because Ne-Yo's acting is just sub par. Kevin Phillips is probably best known for his role in the movie "Pride" which also starred Terrence Howard and Nate Parker.
Some of the language was very corny and it was also very inconsistent. The language in the movie appeared to be a mix on today's slang and content and things that were actually being said in the 1940's.
There were small things that I did notice like Method Man's tattoo that should have been covered with some type of make-up even though he had on long sleeves in every scene that he was in he wasn't standing still the entire time that he was on camera and they could be seen every now and then.
I think that Terrence Howard has a limited range on emotion because I swear he is the same person in all of his movies, he looks good but he is still the same person.
All in all I would recommend that everyone go and see this movie, but also check out The Tuskegee Airmen which was an HBO movie that came out in 1995. In where I think the acting was a little bit better.
But I was very happy to see this movie have a big opening weekend and hopefully this will show Hollywood that an all black cast can bring people out even if there is no old grandma yelling at all of the children to get right. I mean there were SEVERAL all black movies in the 90's and early 2000's and they just all disappeared with the arrival of the blockbuster summer flicks.
This is just my .04 cents
Until Next Time......
Peace & Many Blessings
Sunday, January 22, 2012
What are female MC's coming too?
So today while I was on twitter @necolebitchie posted something about the fans of Beyonce getting into with Roseann Barr about the comments that she made after the passing of musical legend Etta James, now while I found these comments to be VERY funny that is not the reason for my post today. But I saw the video below and that is the reason for my post today.
What is really going on with female MC's today? I MEAN REALLY. First watch this video and then read on http://youtu.be/T6j4f8cHBIM
I mean really isn't there room for everyone to get money?
Nicki Minaj's head is definitely blown up bigger than it really should be. Now I am going to admit that I do like some of her verses like the one's on Roman's Revenge are really good. I think that she held her own against Eminem (who is 1 of my favorite MC's and from my city) but most of her rhymes are very childish and she doesn't really have much to say about anything.
Besides dissing Lil' Kim & Lil Mama and riding Lil' Wayne's dick so hard, what else does she have to contribute? Not much if you ask me. She is a gimmick artist and she is not as talented as a lot of people that I know and that I have met just from being around my city. I am a die hard Detroiter and there are MANY talented people here. Nicki Minaj doesn't hold a match to any of them.
I don't understand is why there has to be so many beefs between female MC's. I mean in the 90's which is when there really was love amongst most, there were songs that we all loved and knew the lyrics to the song of every female MC. Eve, DaBrat, Queen Latifah, Salt N Pepa, Foxy Brown, MC Lyte, Missy the list goes on and on. Now all you have is Nicki Minaj jumping on every track getting on your damn nerves with all of her vocal animation if you want to call it that. Pick a key and stay in it.
I had a conversation with my younger cousins about a year ago and they were explaining to me why Nicki was the best ever and I asked them if they had ever even listened to a Missy album or an Eve album and they told me that they were old and out dated. They said who when I asked them about MC Lyte. Sad I know. They were 16 at the time.
So my thinking is that if you have a big injected ass, big boobs, you wear different color wigs and contacts, talk like a baby and dress half naked than you can make it in this world. Because that is the message that people like Nicki Minaj are sending to all of these young girls that are listening to her thinking that she is the best thing since sliced bread but they just don't know any better.
And this video takes the damn cake of exactly everything that I have just said.....
http://youtu.be/C7hTAp6KrGY
I mean REALLY???? What parents let their 8 & 7 year old sing a song like this?
This is why I am glad that I don't have any children but makes me fear for when I do because they might actually think that this type of behavior is okay.
I said all of that to say this: the music industry should be more than just selling sex, gimmicky "artist" (I use the term artist very loosely) and making money.
Once people stop accepting bullshit than the music will get better. But until then.....
And that is just my .04 cents
Until next time......
Peace & Many Blessings.
P.S. this new song of Nicki's is probably going to be all of the rats and ratchets new anthem because they just don't know any better. #thatisall
What is really going on with female MC's today? I MEAN REALLY. First watch this video and then read on http://youtu.be/T6j4f8cHBIM
I mean really isn't there room for everyone to get money?
Nicki Minaj's head is definitely blown up bigger than it really should be. Now I am going to admit that I do like some of her verses like the one's on Roman's Revenge are really good. I think that she held her own against Eminem (who is 1 of my favorite MC's and from my city) but most of her rhymes are very childish and she doesn't really have much to say about anything.
Besides dissing Lil' Kim & Lil Mama and riding Lil' Wayne's dick so hard, what else does she have to contribute? Not much if you ask me. She is a gimmick artist and she is not as talented as a lot of people that I know and that I have met just from being around my city. I am a die hard Detroiter and there are MANY talented people here. Nicki Minaj doesn't hold a match to any of them.
I don't understand is why there has to be so many beefs between female MC's. I mean in the 90's which is when there really was love amongst most, there were songs that we all loved and knew the lyrics to the song of every female MC. Eve, DaBrat, Queen Latifah, Salt N Pepa, Foxy Brown, MC Lyte, Missy the list goes on and on. Now all you have is Nicki Minaj jumping on every track getting on your damn nerves with all of her vocal animation if you want to call it that. Pick a key and stay in it.
I had a conversation with my younger cousins about a year ago and they were explaining to me why Nicki was the best ever and I asked them if they had ever even listened to a Missy album or an Eve album and they told me that they were old and out dated. They said who when I asked them about MC Lyte. Sad I know. They were 16 at the time.
So my thinking is that if you have a big injected ass, big boobs, you wear different color wigs and contacts, talk like a baby and dress half naked than you can make it in this world. Because that is the message that people like Nicki Minaj are sending to all of these young girls that are listening to her thinking that she is the best thing since sliced bread but they just don't know any better.
And this video takes the damn cake of exactly everything that I have just said.....
http://youtu.be/C7hTAp6KrGY
I mean REALLY???? What parents let their 8 & 7 year old sing a song like this?
This is why I am glad that I don't have any children but makes me fear for when I do because they might actually think that this type of behavior is okay.
I said all of that to say this: the music industry should be more than just selling sex, gimmicky "artist" (I use the term artist very loosely) and making money.
Once people stop accepting bullshit than the music will get better. But until then.....
And that is just my .04 cents
Until next time......
Peace & Many Blessings.
P.S. this new song of Nicki's is probably going to be all of the rats and ratchets new anthem because they just don't know any better. #thatisall
Wednesday, January 18, 2012
The Love of Family
So as I often do when I have some type of news of things going on in my world I go and talk to my grandparents. They are getting up there in their years but I love and deeply cherish our conversations. Today for example I went to talk to my gran to tell her about some things that I am working on.
My grandpa as he often is was in the back letting the TV watch him. But he always has something positive to say to me which I have always really appreciated.
As I was sitting in the kitchen having a cup of tea with my gran and I am telling her about everything that I have going on and what I am working on she is just giving me positive feedback and good advise and who I should contact with in our family that may be able to help me do what needs to be done.
Family is not something that should ever be taken for granted. I have so much love and respect and appreciation for my grandparents that I am not sure if they will ever know it. I tell them that I love them all the time because it is true and I know that they love me because they have always been there for me especially when I was going through a rough patch a few years ago.
My grandmother told me that God always has a plan for me and that what He has planned for me is for me and for no one else. I have heard that saying so many times before but it really didn't like hit home to me until I heard it today. Also the theory or rather my theory of how God really works. Once I started to explain it to her (like she didn't already know) that is when it really hit me as I was saying it. Because it really is true.
When you get knocked down in life and you become mad and angry and bitter at the world you start to tell yourself that you don't need God's help and you can do everything on your own. Then you go out there and you try and nothing is working right for you and then you become even more angry and bitter and you get even madder at the world when you simply weren't listening to what God was trying to tell you.
So once you hit the lowest point and you feel like you can't get any lower you then decide that you no longer want to fight this battle with God because you realize that you are not going to win. So you give and then you start making positive changes in your life and then all of a sudden all of the things that you want and all of the things that you need start falling right into your lap and all you have to do is say thank you God.
That is what happened to me. I was at a really bad and dark place that is totally not in my nature at all. I have a happy go lucky dang near gullible type of person my entire life and I didn't really like me when I was at my low point.
But since I have started making positive changes in my life, things are starting to move in a direction that I want them to go in again and that is all right with me.
So if you have people in your life that you call family by blood or not that are always there for you and help to pick you when you are down, just tell them thank you for always being in your corner.
I am so glad to be getting back to the positive happy Lauren because I like her a lot more than the person that I have been for the past few years.
It is a process and most certainly a learning experience and I am glad that I can take it one day at a time.
Until next time.....
Peace & Many Blessings.
My grandpa as he often is was in the back letting the TV watch him. But he always has something positive to say to me which I have always really appreciated.
As I was sitting in the kitchen having a cup of tea with my gran and I am telling her about everything that I have going on and what I am working on she is just giving me positive feedback and good advise and who I should contact with in our family that may be able to help me do what needs to be done.
Family is not something that should ever be taken for granted. I have so much love and respect and appreciation for my grandparents that I am not sure if they will ever know it. I tell them that I love them all the time because it is true and I know that they love me because they have always been there for me especially when I was going through a rough patch a few years ago.
My grandmother told me that God always has a plan for me and that what He has planned for me is for me and for no one else. I have heard that saying so many times before but it really didn't like hit home to me until I heard it today. Also the theory or rather my theory of how God really works. Once I started to explain it to her (like she didn't already know) that is when it really hit me as I was saying it. Because it really is true.
When you get knocked down in life and you become mad and angry and bitter at the world you start to tell yourself that you don't need God's help and you can do everything on your own. Then you go out there and you try and nothing is working right for you and then you become even more angry and bitter and you get even madder at the world when you simply weren't listening to what God was trying to tell you.
So once you hit the lowest point and you feel like you can't get any lower you then decide that you no longer want to fight this battle with God because you realize that you are not going to win. So you give and then you start making positive changes in your life and then all of a sudden all of the things that you want and all of the things that you need start falling right into your lap and all you have to do is say thank you God.
That is what happened to me. I was at a really bad and dark place that is totally not in my nature at all. I have a happy go lucky dang near gullible type of person my entire life and I didn't really like me when I was at my low point.
But since I have started making positive changes in my life, things are starting to move in a direction that I want them to go in again and that is all right with me.
So if you have people in your life that you call family by blood or not that are always there for you and help to pick you when you are down, just tell them thank you for always being in your corner.
I am so glad to be getting back to the positive happy Lauren because I like her a lot more than the person that I have been for the past few years.
It is a process and most certainly a learning experience and I am glad that I can take it one day at a time.
Until next time.....
Peace & Many Blessings.
Sunday, January 15, 2012
Proceeding with Caution
I have always been one to proceed with caution when it comes to certain things in life. But most of all when it comes to men. I don't know why I am this way to be honest with you. I have absolutely no clue as how I got to be this up tight especially after some of things that I have done over the years.
I guess it is that fear of judgement thing. Because someone is always going to judge you for what you do or don't do and for what you say or don't say. It is not fair but that is the way that society works unfortunately.
So I met this new guy, well not physically met yet but we are going to the next time he is in town and I can't say that I don't want to get physical with him because in the back of my mind I know that I do but that whole fear of judgement thing comes into play. Like will he think I am some type of hoe or groupie and that I do things like that all the time. I don't, this would be the first time if it happens that anything like this would have ever happened to me. It all falls into the line of thinking that I am going to really start living my life since I turned 29 which was a few days ago and I just want to have some fun. I am not looking for any one thing in particular to happen with this guy because one he lives in another state and two of what he does. I am not knocking what he does because it sounds exciting and fun but hey it is what at it is at this point.
There are so many things that I want to ask him because I am just a naturally inquisitive person and I am curious. But I have a tendency and I know this about myself to come off way to strong and then people can't handle it or me.
But he said that he didn't think that I liked flimsy men so he should be able to handle any questions that I have right? Well we shall see. Because like I said before my days of living in a box are over. I want to experience life with freedom and less fear of the unknown.
The worst thing that a person can do is tell me no. And it is not like people haven't been telling me no all my life. Especially men that I am interested in and I contacted him so I guess how does that really make me look? I didn't even think about that until this very moment that maybe he already sees me in a certain light because of how the initial contact was made. I am cool with it though.
You only live life once so why not do it big and do it right while you can.
Have some fun.
Until next time......
Peace & Many Blessings.
Hey maybe he will read this, who knows. LOL
I guess it is that fear of judgement thing. Because someone is always going to judge you for what you do or don't do and for what you say or don't say. It is not fair but that is the way that society works unfortunately.
So I met this new guy, well not physically met yet but we are going to the next time he is in town and I can't say that I don't want to get physical with him because in the back of my mind I know that I do but that whole fear of judgement thing comes into play. Like will he think I am some type of hoe or groupie and that I do things like that all the time. I don't, this would be the first time if it happens that anything like this would have ever happened to me. It all falls into the line of thinking that I am going to really start living my life since I turned 29 which was a few days ago and I just want to have some fun. I am not looking for any one thing in particular to happen with this guy because one he lives in another state and two of what he does. I am not knocking what he does because it sounds exciting and fun but hey it is what at it is at this point.
There are so many things that I want to ask him because I am just a naturally inquisitive person and I am curious. But I have a tendency and I know this about myself to come off way to strong and then people can't handle it or me.
But he said that he didn't think that I liked flimsy men so he should be able to handle any questions that I have right? Well we shall see. Because like I said before my days of living in a box are over. I want to experience life with freedom and less fear of the unknown.
The worst thing that a person can do is tell me no. And it is not like people haven't been telling me no all my life. Especially men that I am interested in and I contacted him so I guess how does that really make me look? I didn't even think about that until this very moment that maybe he already sees me in a certain light because of how the initial contact was made. I am cool with it though.
You only live life once so why not do it big and do it right while you can.
Have some fun.
Until next time......
Peace & Many Blessings.
Hey maybe he will read this, who knows. LOL
Saturday, January 14, 2012
My Problem with BET's The Game
Hello World,
It has been a good few minutes since the last time that I posted a blog. So long that I was going to start a brand new one but I decided revisit this one so here I go.
I have a BIG TIME problem with The Game now that it is on BET because it is on BET. That network sure does know how to mess up a good thing. First I don't understand why it is that Melanie who is the main character can not have any children because she had 1 abortion. That doesn't make any sense. And why is it that she is not practicing medicine which was her main goal for the ENTIRE first 3 seasons to finish medical school and become a doctor. She gave up on going to her dream school so that she could be with her man and be in the same place where he was going to be. Now there is absolutely nothing wrong with supporting your man, but why is it that her man isn't supporting her? Especially since she always wanted to be a doctor and never just wanted to be an football player's wife.
Second how is it that when the show came back 2 years later Brittany (Jason Pitts daughter) was a full blown teenager? In the first season she turned 6 and now all of a sudden she is 16 it has not been 10 years. Be consistent BET. In recent interviews the cast members have stated that Brittany Daniels who played Kelly Pitts is not on this season for "personal reasons" well I think that BET just didn't to have a white character on the show. HEY BET JUST BECAUSE YOU ARE A BLACK NETWORK AND THE GAME IS A BLACK SHOW DOESN'T MEAN THAT THEIR CAN'T BE ANY CHARACTERS OF ANOTHER RACE. We do not just live in a black and white America any longer and our television should be a reflection of that.
It is bad enough that you have made the characters even more hood and more ghetto than they ever where before which just enhances the stereotype of black people as a whole.
So in essence BET you are failing as a network, and The Game despite it's popularity is failing as a show, isn't there anyone at the network that has the guts to tell Debra Lee no?
I guess not.
And that is just my .04 cents.
Until next time
Peace & Many Blessings.
It has been a good few minutes since the last time that I posted a blog. So long that I was going to start a brand new one but I decided revisit this one so here I go.
I have a BIG TIME problem with The Game now that it is on BET because it is on BET. That network sure does know how to mess up a good thing. First I don't understand why it is that Melanie who is the main character can not have any children because she had 1 abortion. That doesn't make any sense. And why is it that she is not practicing medicine which was her main goal for the ENTIRE first 3 seasons to finish medical school and become a doctor. She gave up on going to her dream school so that she could be with her man and be in the same place where he was going to be. Now there is absolutely nothing wrong with supporting your man, but why is it that her man isn't supporting her? Especially since she always wanted to be a doctor and never just wanted to be an football player's wife.
Second how is it that when the show came back 2 years later Brittany (Jason Pitts daughter) was a full blown teenager? In the first season she turned 6 and now all of a sudden she is 16 it has not been 10 years. Be consistent BET. In recent interviews the cast members have stated that Brittany Daniels who played Kelly Pitts is not on this season for "personal reasons" well I think that BET just didn't to have a white character on the show. HEY BET JUST BECAUSE YOU ARE A BLACK NETWORK AND THE GAME IS A BLACK SHOW DOESN'T MEAN THAT THEIR CAN'T BE ANY CHARACTERS OF ANOTHER RACE. We do not just live in a black and white America any longer and our television should be a reflection of that.
It is bad enough that you have made the characters even more hood and more ghetto than they ever where before which just enhances the stereotype of black people as a whole.
So in essence BET you are failing as a network, and The Game despite it's popularity is failing as a show, isn't there anyone at the network that has the guts to tell Debra Lee no?
I guess not.
And that is just my .04 cents.
Until next time
Peace & Many Blessings.
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