I Feel Good About It

So last night was the night of the concert that I have been talking about going to for a few weeks on twitter and in person if you know me. Yesterday was my day off after doing a 9 yes 9 day stretch at work. I was scheduled to work that many days because I wouldn't do that to myself on purpose because I know how I can be after a long weekend. So to say the least I was TIRED.


But moving on.

So my day started off with me waking up from about an hour nap of not being able to sleep all night the night before because I was some where that I shouldn't have been with someone who isn't good for me and I went over there knowing all of that information but I did it anyway. After not really being able to sleep because the space that I was in was A MESS and I just didn't feel that comfortable knowing that I would be spending my next night with someone else that I was actually looking forward to spending some time with.... But more on that in a minute. The person that I was with on Friday night I have a soft spot for him even though I know that he is not really good for me. There is something in me that draws me to him and I can't explain it nor can I turn it off. Even though I have tried but maybe I should try harder. Nothing happened we just went to sleep. Well he went to sleep and I just laid there awake and uncomfortable thinking about all of the things that I had to get done on Saturday before the show.


So once I got home I sat there and watched the entire funeral for Whitney Houston it was sad and I still can't believe that she is gone but I watched it anyway.


After I that went off I went through some clothes and tired to put together something that was cute and sexy but not showing off too much but just enough. I have my moments when I want to be exposed and I have my moments that I don't want to be exposed. Last night was a "I want to be exposed night" it was for several reasons but mostly because I wanted to appeal to his eyes if nothing else.

Moving on....


So I went to the concert and when I say these three women put on an amazing show, they put on an amazing show. I didn't know that Melanie Fiona could sing like that and now I am really a fan. Everyone knows that I love Chrisette Michele and Marsha Ambrosius just has a sick voice that makes no sense at all. All of these women have God given talent and make me almost wish that I was still singing. But that is another blog for another time.

So on the main event so to speak lol.

Finally it was time for me to meet this man face to face and back up all of the talking that I had done in my text messages over the past month.


I will admit that I was nervous. Why I don't know because it is not like he didn't show me part of who he was over this time period, I will just chalk it up to me being me. Check my post "Proceeding with Caution" for more.

Let me just say this about last night. He was very patient, very gentle, very comforting and even though he was extremely tired he waited for me to be ready before he even begin to proceed with anything. He told me that he is not one to judge, I believe him.

So when I woke up this morning and I was taking my shower while he was still sleeping I was thinking about everything replaying it in my head and I feel good about everything. If I never see him again because he works like crazy and so do I or because he has other women in other places or because I can't get other people out of my system or because of this or because or that I still feel good about it.

I am a woman of a certain age and I was not forced into doing anything that I didn't want to do nor anything that was not agreed upon. I had a good time and I feel like I kinda came into my own to a certain extent last night.

I am single and I am allowed to have some fun and live my life the way that I choose to live it.

Life is so short that you never really know when your today will be your last. That is something that only God knows and I am not one to challenge Him or his plans that He has for me.

I feel good about last night. I feel good about it if we never meet again. I feel great about it if we do.

I am happy and that is the point.

And that is just my .04 cents.

Until next time....


Peace & Many Blessings.