So last night was the night of the concert that I have been talking about going to for a few weeks on twitter and in person if you know me. Yesterday was my day off after doing a 9 yes 9 day stretch at work. I was scheduled to work that many days because I wouldn't do that to myself on purpose because I know how I can be after a long weekend. So to say the least I was TIRED.
But moving on.
So my day started off with me waking up from about an hour nap of not being able to sleep all night the night before because I was some where that I shouldn't have been with someone who isn't good for me and I went over there knowing all of that information but I did it anyway. After not really being able to sleep because the space that I was in was A MESS and I just didn't feel that comfortable knowing that I would be spending my next night with someone else that I was actually looking forward to spending some time with.... But more on that in a minute. The person that I was with on Friday night I have a soft spot for him even though I know that he is not really good for me. There is something in me that draws me to him and I can't explain it nor can I turn it off. Even though I have tried but maybe I should try harder. Nothing happened we just went to sleep. Well he went to sleep and I just laid there awake and uncomfortable thinking about all of the things that I had to get done on Saturday before the show.
So once I got home I sat there and watched the entire funeral for Whitney Houston it was sad and I still can't believe that she is gone but I watched it anyway.
After I that went off I went through some clothes and tired to put together something that was cute and sexy but not showing off too much but just enough. I have my moments when I want to be exposed and I have my moments that I don't want to be exposed. Last night was a "I want to be exposed night" it was for several reasons but mostly because I wanted to appeal to his eyes if nothing else.
Moving on....
So I went to the concert and when I say these three women put on an amazing show, they put on an amazing show. I didn't know that Melanie Fiona could sing like that and now I am really a fan. Everyone knows that I love Chrisette Michele and Marsha Ambrosius just has a sick voice that makes no sense at all. All of these women have God given talent and make me almost wish that I was still singing. But that is another blog for another time.
So on the main event so to speak lol.
Finally it was time for me to meet this man face to face and back up all of the talking that I had done in my text messages over the past month.
I will admit that I was nervous. Why I don't know because it is not like he didn't show me part of who he was over this time period, I will just chalk it up to me being me. Check my post "Proceeding with Caution" for more.
Let me just say this about last night. He was very patient, very gentle, very comforting and even though he was extremely tired he waited for me to be ready before he even begin to proceed with anything. He told me that he is not one to judge, I believe him.
So when I woke up this morning and I was taking my shower while he was still sleeping I was thinking about everything replaying it in my head and I feel good about everything. If I never see him again because he works like crazy and so do I or because he has other women in other places or because I can't get other people out of my system or because of this or because or that I still feel good about it.
I am a woman of a certain age and I was not forced into doing anything that I didn't want to do nor anything that was not agreed upon. I had a good time and I feel like I kinda came into my own to a certain extent last night.
I am single and I am allowed to have some fun and live my life the way that I choose to live it.
Life is so short that you never really know when your today will be your last. That is something that only God knows and I am not one to challenge Him or his plans that He has for me.
I feel good about last night. I feel good about it if we never meet again. I feel great about it if we do.
I am happy and that is the point.
And that is just my .04 cents.
Until next time....
Peace & Many Blessings.
Sunday, February 19, 2012
Thursday, February 2, 2012
A Reason, A Season, A Lifetime
The saying goes that people will be in your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. The first time I think I ever heard that saying was during a training that I was in for becoming a resident assistant before starting my third year of school.
It really hadn't dawned on me of what it really meant until recently due to some things that I am changing in my life and that other people in my life are not changing. Now I am not knocking anyone for staying stagnant in their own life but I can't stop moving in mine. I have come so far and I still have a ways to go with everything that I want to accomplish in life. I can not have people around me that are standing still. Plain and simple. That is no longer going to work for me. You don't have to encourage me. You don't even have to support me if you don't want too. You can just step aside and let me do my thing and move forward in my life with the momentum that I am building for myself.
Now if you want to hang on for the ride okay cool but I am not going to let your negativity or poor decision making skills hinder me from doing what I need to do for myself. There are so many people that I thought really had my best interests in mind but it turns out that they just want to keep me down in the dumps with them. This is totally unacceptable. I can not live my life that way and I refuse to live my life that way.
When you have so much going on in a positive light and you are making changes to better yourself it is very hard to keep people around that are not bettering themselves. At first it might make you a little angry and upset because you are doing all of these things and they are just standing still. And of course you want the people that you care about and love you to grow with you but that is not always the case.
One thing that I have learned in life is that you can not wait on other people to make moves in your own life. You have to go after what you want and do the things that you know are going to benefit you the most. Whatever your talent is let that shine through and the people that are really in your corner are going to back you no matter what you are doing, they are always going to be in your corner. But the ones that are out to get you for some thing because they think that your talent is going to take them some where is the saddest thing that you will ever come across.
At this point in my life with everything that I have going on from finishing these writing projects that, to living more in the moment, and getting healthier for my own life and my future, I don't have time for the BS any longer. When I said I was going to stop bullshitting this year I meant that for myself as well as for everyone else that is in my life too. Because if you are going to be on that bull shit than I have to let you fall by the waste side and maybe I can pick you back up again once you get your own things together and work out your own issues.
But until I am going for mine and I am not going to let anyone stop me.
And that is just my .04 cents
Until Next Time.......
Peace & Many Blessings
It really hadn't dawned on me of what it really meant until recently due to some things that I am changing in my life and that other people in my life are not changing. Now I am not knocking anyone for staying stagnant in their own life but I can't stop moving in mine. I have come so far and I still have a ways to go with everything that I want to accomplish in life. I can not have people around me that are standing still. Plain and simple. That is no longer going to work for me. You don't have to encourage me. You don't even have to support me if you don't want too. You can just step aside and let me do my thing and move forward in my life with the momentum that I am building for myself.
Now if you want to hang on for the ride okay cool but I am not going to let your negativity or poor decision making skills hinder me from doing what I need to do for myself. There are so many people that I thought really had my best interests in mind but it turns out that they just want to keep me down in the dumps with them. This is totally unacceptable. I can not live my life that way and I refuse to live my life that way.
When you have so much going on in a positive light and you are making changes to better yourself it is very hard to keep people around that are not bettering themselves. At first it might make you a little angry and upset because you are doing all of these things and they are just standing still. And of course you want the people that you care about and love you to grow with you but that is not always the case.
One thing that I have learned in life is that you can not wait on other people to make moves in your own life. You have to go after what you want and do the things that you know are going to benefit you the most. Whatever your talent is let that shine through and the people that are really in your corner are going to back you no matter what you are doing, they are always going to be in your corner. But the ones that are out to get you for some thing because they think that your talent is going to take them some where is the saddest thing that you will ever come across.
At this point in my life with everything that I have going on from finishing these writing projects that, to living more in the moment, and getting healthier for my own life and my future, I don't have time for the BS any longer. When I said I was going to stop bullshitting this year I meant that for myself as well as for everyone else that is in my life too. Because if you are going to be on that bull shit than I have to let you fall by the waste side and maybe I can pick you back up again once you get your own things together and work out your own issues.
But until I am going for mine and I am not going to let anyone stop me.
And that is just my .04 cents
Until Next Time.......
Peace & Many Blessings
Wednesday, February 1, 2012
The Art of Story Telling
There are so many ways to tell a story, and to tell a good one. In recent years there has been a public battle between two major story tellers in the Black community, the veteran Spike Lee that brought us the story of Malcolm X and put a lot of Black actors that we love in movies in the late 80's and 90's such as Angela Bassett, Denzel Washington and Wesley Snipes. Then there is the relative new comer Tyler Perry that has risen to fame and fortune on the strength of one character Madea.
Now don't get me wrong I find Madea to be funny but very repetitive. I don't think that it is really the greatest representation of Black people and Black culture. I come from a very large family and I know what it is like to have that strong Black woman in your family that is the leader and that takes care of all the children and the neighborhood, my great grandmother was that person but she did it with class. Never once did she ever threaten to shoot someone with a pistol or try and beat them down when they didn't behave. All she had to do was give you a look and you would straighten right up.
I think that part of the problem between Spike Lee and Tyler Perry is that Spike Lee has worked for so many years to tell all types of stories and has never really received (in my opinion) the proper respect or credit for being such a ground breaking director, writer and producer when there very few Black people telling any type of Black stories at all. Now there may be some jealousy there between the two because Tyler Perry is raking in the money hand over fist and not slowing down. Or because he owns his own studio with a lot and sound stages. Who really knows?
The problem that I have with Tyler Perry is that he is telling the same story over and over again. His characters are everyday people that you would find in any city in the world, they go out do wrong pray to God get some help from family and everything is all good and everyone acts as if nothing ever happened in the first place. I really wish that it were that easy, because if it were I would be a millionaire too for telling all of the stories that I have swimming around in my head and I would be able to do what ever I wanted whenever I wanted. I would be able to sit around and write all day long without any other care in the world. But my reality is I have to go to work everyday and write whenever my schedule permits me to do so because I have student loans to pay off and God children to think about and bills that need to be taken care of.
After having had several discussions with my friends over the years most of them don't like Tyler Perry and are on #TeamSpike after giving it some serious thoughts I have to agree with some of the things that Spike Lee has said about Tyler Perry's work and I disagree with some other things. Do I think that Tyler Perry over does it with the Madea character at times, yes. Do I feel like you could get the same message across without Madea being so over the top, yes. Do I think that Tyler Perry is ever going to stop using Madea in his movies, no, why, because she sells, plain and simple and money talks in this world. That is just the way that it is.
I think that it is great that Tyler Perry owns his own business and believes in employing Black people and hires all of these Black actors that may otherwise not be working but he can use some other people besides the same ones that he uses over and over again like Gabrielle Union, Tasha Smith, Brian J. White, I love these actors but lets see some other people. Expose the world to some new talents since you know that people are going to come and see the movie anyway because it has your name on it.
With everything else that is going on in the world today the last thing that anyone really wants to hear about is two multi-millionaires arguing about who makes a better movie and who touches the most amount of people.
Tyler Perry the people that love Madea are going to continue to love her and support your movies from here until you decide not to make them any longer.
Spike Lee people that have supported your work and love your movies are going to continue to support and love your movies because it is A Spike Lee Joint.
You both make valid points as to why your films are good and as to why you may not particular care for the other person but in the end you both will always have the support of the Black community because you are both people that millions of people look up to and aspire to be like.
So save the drama for someone else because we have enough to deal with. Like making sure that Obama get re-elected. Let's focus on that!
But hey what do I know. I am just a young woman from Detroit trying to make it in this world for doing something that I love. WRITING.
And that is just my .04 cents.
Until Next Time.
Peace & Many Blessings.
Now don't get me wrong I find Madea to be funny but very repetitive. I don't think that it is really the greatest representation of Black people and Black culture. I come from a very large family and I know what it is like to have that strong Black woman in your family that is the leader and that takes care of all the children and the neighborhood, my great grandmother was that person but she did it with class. Never once did she ever threaten to shoot someone with a pistol or try and beat them down when they didn't behave. All she had to do was give you a look and you would straighten right up.
I think that part of the problem between Spike Lee and Tyler Perry is that Spike Lee has worked for so many years to tell all types of stories and has never really received (in my opinion) the proper respect or credit for being such a ground breaking director, writer and producer when there very few Black people telling any type of Black stories at all. Now there may be some jealousy there between the two because Tyler Perry is raking in the money hand over fist and not slowing down. Or because he owns his own studio with a lot and sound stages. Who really knows?
The problem that I have with Tyler Perry is that he is telling the same story over and over again. His characters are everyday people that you would find in any city in the world, they go out do wrong pray to God get some help from family and everything is all good and everyone acts as if nothing ever happened in the first place. I really wish that it were that easy, because if it were I would be a millionaire too for telling all of the stories that I have swimming around in my head and I would be able to do what ever I wanted whenever I wanted. I would be able to sit around and write all day long without any other care in the world. But my reality is I have to go to work everyday and write whenever my schedule permits me to do so because I have student loans to pay off and God children to think about and bills that need to be taken care of.
After having had several discussions with my friends over the years most of them don't like Tyler Perry and are on #TeamSpike after giving it some serious thoughts I have to agree with some of the things that Spike Lee has said about Tyler Perry's work and I disagree with some other things. Do I think that Tyler Perry over does it with the Madea character at times, yes. Do I feel like you could get the same message across without Madea being so over the top, yes. Do I think that Tyler Perry is ever going to stop using Madea in his movies, no, why, because she sells, plain and simple and money talks in this world. That is just the way that it is.
I think that it is great that Tyler Perry owns his own business and believes in employing Black people and hires all of these Black actors that may otherwise not be working but he can use some other people besides the same ones that he uses over and over again like Gabrielle Union, Tasha Smith, Brian J. White, I love these actors but lets see some other people. Expose the world to some new talents since you know that people are going to come and see the movie anyway because it has your name on it.
With everything else that is going on in the world today the last thing that anyone really wants to hear about is two multi-millionaires arguing about who makes a better movie and who touches the most amount of people.
Tyler Perry the people that love Madea are going to continue to love her and support your movies from here until you decide not to make them any longer.
Spike Lee people that have supported your work and love your movies are going to continue to support and love your movies because it is A Spike Lee Joint.
You both make valid points as to why your films are good and as to why you may not particular care for the other person but in the end you both will always have the support of the Black community because you are both people that millions of people look up to and aspire to be like.
So save the drama for someone else because we have enough to deal with. Like making sure that Obama get re-elected. Let's focus on that!
But hey what do I know. I am just a young woman from Detroit trying to make it in this world for doing something that I love. WRITING.
And that is just my .04 cents.
Until Next Time.
Peace & Many Blessings.
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