Many Irons In the Fire

So it has been a long time since I wrote a blog post and there have been so many wonderful things going on in my world so I am going to take a moment to share a few.

Starting with my writing:

I have been writing since I was a kid, it started out as a hobby and now it is becoming something much more than I ever thought it would be. This is truly a gift from God and I am so grateful that I am able to have it. Though @ times it can be my down fall when I am not exactly sure of what I want to say when I have a lot to say. But that is a part of me that is a work in progress that I am going to keep working on. I am working on one show right now, a dramedy, I have another show that I am helping a friend to develop, his story my words, and another show that I am creating from my own imagination from things that have gone on in my life.

I am excited about all of them, 2 of them are on other's people's time so it is a process that I am learning to deal with since I know that everyone does not work the way that I work. I would stay up writing all night if that is what I needed to do to get a project done. But that's just me. I am also trying to start a website so that I can do my music reviews I have a concept and everything I just need a little help with the execution. I am know some people that can help me though so once I get everything into place for that it will be up and running.

I am so happy that things are happening for me after these last few years of being down about everything that was wrong with my life. I had to step up to the plate and I am swinging for the wall.

More to come about everything when I can talk about them.

As far as my love life, there still isn't one... so to speak. I have one person that isn't ready to commit and if he is it isn't to commit to me and at this point I am not even sure if I want to even be with him anymore anyway. I feel like we might be heading in slightly different directions and I am not sure if I want him to be my tag a long buddy. That was part of the problem in our relationship when we were together many years ago, it was whatever I wanted, whatever I wanted to do, where ever I wanted to go. IT didn't sit with me then, and it is not going to sit with me now. So I think the best thing for us is to just be friends and just that. Nothing extra, because when there is extra my heart gets in the way and I get all confused about what is real and what isn't.

AS far as anyone else, well... let's just say there is someone else but I am not sure if this is going to go anywhere at the moment either. There is no clarity on anything which I am not really feeling that much. I like to know where I stand with people @ all times. I know that I don't have that kind of control but that is how I feel. That is something that I can't help at this point. I try to work on it but it hasn't changed over the years. I like this person I really do, he is smart, he looks good, he makes me laugh and every time that I am around him I get this over whelming sense of peace which is something that is not to be taken for granted. But he doesn't really know how he feels about me. He doesn't know what he wants from me which doesn't sit all the way right with me. I don't know is never the answer to a question, because you always know, it is just a matter of if you are going to tell the truth or tell a lie. So when he says he doesn't know. I honestly think that he does but he doesn't want to say because he doesn't want anything to be premature. I think, I'm guessing, maybe. I am going to try and roll with it for right now and see where it leads me.

Only time will tell but until then I am just going to continue to focus on what I am doing and get back to taking care of me and my needs.

I have a lot of irons in the fire right now and I can't let the flame die.


Until next time...... which will be soon


PEACE